Priceless

I didn’t cry.
I didn’t cry when Grandfather died.
I’ve cried for cats on the side of the road,
For birds frozen in winter,
For bees squashed by careless passersby.
I’ve cried for a hurt,
For my best friend’s sadness,
For moving far far away.
I’ve cried for many things-
But not for Grandpa.

Now he is gone, and I have nothing left.
Nothing left but memories,
Sadness,
And a little wooden block
With my name.
A tiny replica of my name, with a hollow space
For my pencil.
The last thing he made before he left
Me for good.
There is nothing left.
Nothing but me and the pain
In a cold lonely void.

Priceless.
That light brown name of mine
Immortalized in wood.
Worthless
If you sold it,
Except as firewood.
But
Priceless still,
For that piece of wood
Means the world to me.

Rough as his hand,
Weathered and worn when he held me.
Smooth as his love
For a wayward child.
Packed brim to brim
With his heart and soul;
A beacon of hope
For generations yet to come.

You’d think
After a while
You’d run out of tears.

Volcano!

Magma- rivers of it-
A river of fire, rolling downhill
Mountains- erupting in flame
A flame to end all life
Plants- scorched to death
A death of no return
Silence- then
A bird twittering in the darkness
Bringing hope of a new life

The Mage

There once was a boy
That I met on a game
He gave me a wave
I was never the same

His hair was black
His eyes were too
Unless they were
The deepest blue

He looked at my tale
I glanced at his, true,
And found there was
Something more I could do.

His story was good
He made few mistakes
And so I helped
Him take the cake

We made a few threads
Then bound them to one
That is how
Our friendship begun

I care for cows-
What a funny name!-
And Jerenda the Wizard
Have played a game.

A game of love and sorrow
A game of crimson dice
A game of fire crackers
A game of mice and ice.

A game it was,
A game it shall be
Unless someone takes
A step, you see.

What have I done?
What will you do?
I do not know-
Nor, I think, do you.

One thing’s for sure;
Hearts never lie.
We made a friend
Both you and I.

Raistlin the mage,
You should always know
That the lady of rose
Will help you grow.

Just call my name
When you face a foe
Whose weak point
You do not know

A real-life warrior
Or demons deep
I’ll be with you
When you sleep.

Peace, my friend, and may we meet again.

What is Magic?

What is Magic?
What is wonder, beauty, gentleness, peace?
Is Magic concealed in meandering streams or softly lapping ponds?
Is it hidden in the crash of the ocean,
Or the boom of thunder on the horizon?
Is there power in the flight of a butterfly?
Can a doomed experiment hold hidden success?

What is Magic?
Is there a spell in the grand finale
Of an orchestra?
Do spell weavers live in quiet dreams?
Is Magic the desire of our ever-hidden souls?
Is Magic finally living
As you wanted all your life?
Is it spells and wands and potion books?
Or
Is it the quiet
Hope of love?
The song of joy
And
The
Silence
In
Your
Heart?
What do you think?

Lead Me Through The Night

Look at the skies, tell me what do you see
Show me the beauty, help me get free.
Darkness is falling and I am struck blind
If you're searching for hands please take mine

Just where you're going, I really don't know
How will we get there? Which way will we go?
The answers to these will come in good time
There exists only your hand in mine

Lead me through the night
For I have lost my sight
Lead me through the night
Until the morning's light...comes again.

How can you know what it's costing me to
Just hold your hand and believe in you?
At any time you could lead me astray
I would not know if I lost the way

These hidden fears are assaulting me-
I almost let go, almost went free,
But I know your strength, and I know your heart
And I know we should not be apart...

Lead me through the night
For I have lost my sight
Lead me through the night
Until the morning's light...comes again.

So I'm following you
Through paths I do not know
Trusting in your wisdom,
Knowing you won't let go!

Faith and dreams both slip away
So does hope for light of day
Dark I see and dark's my mind,
I am struggling in a bind!

But in my ear, so warm and soft
I hear a whisper of bright love
You hand becomes a line of hope
That I'll never let go of!

Lead me through the night
For I have lost my sight
Lead me through the night
Until the morning's-

Lead me through the-
Lead me through the-
Lead me through the night!

The Phoenix

Rising,
Wheeling,
Turning above the clouds.
Soaring,
Burning,
Laughing at the earth-bound ones.

The Phoenix flies
On wings of molten silk,
Elegance made flesh,
Flashing fire out into the sky.

Above it, the burning orb of sunshine.
Below it, the vast expanse of grass.
But for her radiant beauty,
Nothing- nothing exists to draw the eye.

But the Phoenix is failing,
Her years growing long-
Tired, she sinks to the grassy floor,
Lighting up the sky.

One last blaze of beauty,
One last flash of fire,
One last display of elegance,
One last turn, no higher.

Flames consume it, shattering
The hollow bones, the skin
That held the Phoenix in the air
For a thousand years or more.

Not the once-great Phoenix
Is but a memory
And all that’s left are ashes-
Ashes, and the grassy sea.

But wait- hope lives on!
The slightest ray of light:
A tiny motion can be seen
From the dust-gray ashes.

A shake- a shudder-
The pile moves, so slowly-

Oh!
She rises, eyes as piercing as the stars,
Wings bursting into flame,
As she lifts off from the ground.

With a shriek of proud defiance
The Phoenix leaves her nest.
Ashes no more, but born anew,
The beauty is tenfold.

She soars into the sunset,
A speck of flame on flame,
And I feel my heartbeat falter-
There goes sunlight, all untamed.

Never Say Die

I feel like I’m falling-
Dying-
But my legs still hold me up.

My torn heart is breaking-
Cracking-
Shattering into dust.

The world, once so bright,
Has lost its glow
Who in all the world
Could hold me now?

[musical interlude]

So maybe the world is grey,
So what if there is no hope?
Who said I could give up?
What right do I have to die?

Like a phoenix from the ashes (I’m getting up)
I’m casting off the grey (I’m too stubborn)
I’m not afraid, I’ll face life smiling (To just give in)

And I will laugh,
And I will cry,
And I will never-
Ever- never say die!

My spirit’s free
I can just be me
I’ll just ignore
Those mocking eyes-

[music stops suddenly with a sound like breaking glass, and into the silence you hear...]

So what if my heart is breaking?
Who cares if I’m a shattered mess?
So inside there’s naught but sadness-
I can't let that bring me down!

[music restarts]

So I will laugh,
And I will cry,
And I will lift my head
And never-

Ever-

Never!-

Ever…

Say... die...

Prove to me

Prove to me
Prove that you're human.
Prove that you’ll fail. That you’d stop. That you can.

Prove it to me.
I need to know what you are-
Because sometimes… I wonder.

You push yourself so hard.
Effort never stops pouring out of you
And then… I wonder. Are you paying in blood?

No one can do what you do. It’s impossible.
No one can keep going and going and never stop, never fail.
Never give in.

So, prove to me.
Prove that you’re human.
You can be human, can’t you?
For me.

Dreams with Wings
Featuring Clyde

A dream- a way-
a chance to fail.
A giver's portion,
a writer's tale

A breath- a beat-
a way to fight.
A begger's chance,
an angel's flight.

The dreams and more are falling down-
Perchance a hero can be found?
Lost amidst the rocky tors
There I sleep and I adore.

There's silence and a deathly linger.
I try to search, but can't quite finger.
It seems so close and yet so far.
Like a friend I know, but on a star.

My heart is burning, yet no cry.
Desire pierces - tell me why?
To the sky I watch and flee.
To fly wingless? I agree...

My eyes are seeking, I cannot see blind.
Hatred burns on - I am confined.
And as I find the last piece.
There it is, my passion deceased.

Sky envelops, peaceful dark,
a life worth living, an overboastful bark.
Chaos and peace clash and combine
and to this last note, I courteously decline...

Left Me

You left me without saying good bye.
I may never see you again.
Where have you gone? And tell me true-
Why can I not follow you?

It’s been two days
Since you left me
I have not drawn breath since then.
And through my tears
I see your face
Swimming in the air.

You left me without saying good bye.
I may never see you again.
Whatever posess you to
Leave me all alone?

It’s been a week
I think I can breathe.
My heart begins to beat again.
I must be strong!
Yet I am so weak.
How can this go on?

You left me without saying goodbye.
I may never see you again.
Where have you gone? And tell me true-
Why can I not follow you?

A month has passed,
I’m calming down.
I think that I can see the way.
I’m pressing on.
I must be strong.
I must ignore the pain.

You left me without saying goodbye.
I may never see you again.
Whatever could posses you to
Leave me all alone?

The coolest night air
Enters my mind.
With the ice comes clarity.
The pain is gone
Leaving new hope-
I know I can move on.

You left me without saying goodbye.
Perhaps someday we will meet again.
I’m moving on- yet I won’t forget
The pain… and then the hope.

Serenity
Breath in the peace of the cool night air.
Clear certainity i-i-is there.
It opens the mind and brightens the sight
With the da-arkness o-of the night.

Tranquility

Dreams are lifting on,
Flowing ever strong,
Spirit sails on wings of silk
Soul is fleeting- shifting- gone.

May I not return.
May I, ever seeking, burn.
May I never break your heart
And, I fleeing, never turn.

Sleep brings paradise
Sanctuary from your eyes
Searching, ever searching, striving to understand
The tears within my lives.

Magic pouring through,
Wonders ever new,
Dreaming, winging, laughing song-
Mixing up the false with true.

Agonizing pain
Burns and sears in vain.
Searching soul in pointless hope
Suffused with darkest rain.

You are so innocent.
So peaceful, and so heaven-sent
How can I twist your world this way?
There’s such confused intent.

It’s bad enough that I don’t know
Who I really am
Without engaging you in this,
This deathless, ageless mess.

Oh, how I wish to tell you-
How I want to say-
But what goes on within my heart
Won’t stand the light of day.

So trapped in twisted torment,
I walk the lonely skies.
Perhaps one day I’ll find my peace
Perhaps it won’t be lies.

Everyone around us was weeping.

Abandoned by the whole world.

Don’t cry, little brother.

The snow under my feet turned red.

Never shall I forget.

Why should I sanctify His name?

What was there to thank Him for?

Babies! Children, thrown into the flames

Where is merciful God, where is He?

And His was the face of an angel in distress.

Deep inside me, I felt a great void opening.

but I no longer felt the pain.

Nothing between the lashes of the whip.

Where is merciful God, where is He?

in a world without God

without love.

All around me, a dance of death.

You are too skinny, too weak…

Where is merciful God, where is He?

And yet…

His soul had become the bow.
His whole being was gliding over the strings.
He played that which he would never play again…

Oh, God of kindness…

Almighty…

It is time.
Master of the Universe…
Let us make up.