Eukara Vox
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Dream Doll by Eukara Vox The bell rang quietly as she stepped through the door. Even though she really had no time at all, something pulled her to this store. Granted, it had been a while since she played with a doll, but the ones in this store were just so irresistible. Surely a few minutes spent here wouldn't be held against her at the office? She had just conducted one of the most important luncheons of her career, sealing the deal, and brought in the biggest client her firm had seen in three decades. So what if she was late back... She deserved this break. The man behind the counter merely looked up at her from half-framed glasses and grunted an acknowledgement of her existence. Surprised, she nearly stepped back out of the store. What ever happened to the happy, smiling face of a toy salesman that she remembered from childhood stores? Swallowing, she made her way to the right side of the store to look at the dolls on display. Each doll on this side of the room showed a tomboyish personality. Some wore jeans and t-shirts, some denim dresses that seemed stained with a patch of grass here or mud there. They reminded her of her own childhood. As she stood there, the memories of playdates and carefree adventures ran through her mind. Moving along, the dolls slowly began to grow up. The ones that seemed almost teenage wore clothing fit for an athlete. Some wore sweats of various colours, but she noticed that pink showed up very little in these dolls. Almost as if purposely avoiding the colour. How funny, she mused to herself, just like me when I was that age. Yet, though she felt a connection to these dolls, she neither reached for them, nor longed to touch them. "Who makes the dolls, sir?" The man grunted again, not looking up from his crossword puzzle. "Dante does. I just sell them." "Dante? Is he here? I would very much like to meet him. The dolls are so very beautiful." "I regret that the artist is not available," he said, though there was no regret in his voice. "I see him rarely. His dolls come and go at odd intervals. Apparently, I only get one when the fancy strikes him to be creative." The woman bit her lip in disappointment. She would have paid nearly anything to have the man commissioned to make her a doll. She had one in her mind, a doll she had as a child that her brothers destroyed in an act of pyromancy. She had loved that doll, and on that day, her belief that all people were good was destroyed. That was the day she put dolls from her mind and decided to grow up. For if she grew up, her brothers couldn't destroy her things anymore. Sighing, she walked to the other side of the store. The tomboyish dolls soon disappeared, even the ones that grew into adults which resembled her to an extent, and gave way to such elegance that her breath was caught in her throat. Such beauty... she thought as she reached out to touch one. At the last minute, she pulled back, afraid. These were the porcelain dolls, the ladies of poise and grace, of delicate features and flowing dresses. The young woman looked at her hands, then back at the dolls. Not her hands, that's for sure. No, she had the hands of a hard working, lower-middle class girl that finally worked her way up to something more. She looked at her clothing, her plain business suit fit a figure that was more athletic than elegant. She tried smoothing out her skirt and blouse, hoping to give her normal body a better sense of curves... Curves like the dolls in front of her. As a child, she had always admired the porcelain dolls. How she had longed to look like them - dresses that had personalities all their own, expressive eyes that bore into your soul, and elegant arms and legs that created the sense of gliding across the floor when she walked. She sighed again, heavily, as her eyes soaked in each and every doll on those shelves. She stopped. There she was... The doll of her dreams. Creamy skin, smooth, with just a hint of definition in the muscle. Green dress embroidered... My God, she exclaimed silently as she felt the dress, the leaves of the dress are truly hand-embroidered. Her fingers traced over the leaves, giving an almost perfect impression of drifting lazily through the air until they fell in a pile at her feet. Of course, this was all sewn into the dress, not real, but for a moment it felt real. Unable to control herself, she lifted the doll from its stand and looked into the big brown eyes, lightly shadowed with make-up. This... This is what she had dreamed of looking like as a little girl. This doll, this dress, this face, all that she had wished she could be and knew she never would. Everyone knew that tomboys, no matter how hard they tried, would never be a graceful belle. She kissed the doll's carefully styled hair, and set her back on the shelf. Suddenly, her watch beeped, signaling it was now two in the afternoon. She blinked in astonishment. I've been here an hour! She looked around franticly, and began to rush out of the store. She paused briefly, looking once more at the brown-eyed porcelain doll with a pang of regret. "Tell Dante that he does beautiful work. I will be back, I promise." And with a flurry of air and the ringing of the bell, she was gone. The man merely grunted in return, his eyes never leaving his crossword puzzle. * * * * * * She sat sprawled across the small couch in her modest apartment. That had been close. The executives had played off her lateness as a result of post-closing celebration. They had excused her, but what choice had they? She had brought a multi-billion dollar conglomerate into their firm's strong hand, delivered with a bow. They had laughed and clapped her on the shoulder, wondering just what bar she dropped by for her little personal party. She hadn't the nerve to tell them she had spent the hour gazing at dolls. They had treated her to dinner and drinks after hours, their way of saying thank you for filling their bank accounts with fat cash and perks. Sure, she would see some of that, but not like those above her. She kicked off her shoes and rubbed her feet. She hated wearing those heels. How on earth do women wear those everyday? Ridiculous footwear, I swear! Eventually, she got up, more tired than anticipated and made her way to her bedroom for a hot shower and the warmth of her bed. She stood beneath the cascading hot water for what felt like eternity, willing the water to wash away the day's work. As she began to relax, she pulled out her body wash of lotus blossoms and vanilla and lathered, until the heady scent of the foam covered every inch of her body. Reluctantly, the time came for her to leave the comfort of the shower and she slowly rinsed the foam away from her body. She watched it sluice off and run along the bottom of the shower slowly... Almost too slowly. It swirled around the drain almost dreamily and she blinked her eyes. Shaking her head, she knew she was more exhausted than she wanted to be. No book for her tonight, no reading of faraway places and handsome men that rescue you. She pulled on her satin pajamas and climbed into bed, pulling the plush comforter up to her neck. She nestled down and slowly fell asleep, the faces of her newest clients floating in the air. Right before she succumbed to her fatigue, a pair of brown eyes looked at her unblinking, piercing her soul. * * * * * * She awoke with a start, finding herself completely beneath the comforter. Panicked, she tried to remove the heavy material, but found she couldn't move. Lift, damn you, lift! she directed at her arms, but they wouldn't respond. She tried to kick, but her legs were unresponsive too. She tried to speak... But nothing came out. No sound, no muffled cries, nothing. Her mouth wouldn't move. She screamed, and heard it, but the sound was strange, as if it was faraway. Panic welled up in her mind, fear coursing through her thoughts as she struggled to understand what was happening. She heard movement, mutterings that were quiet yet slightly crazed. A shadow moved around her bed, most likely from the light shining behind whoever was there. Surely she had locked the door as soon as she walked into the apartment. If this intruder had broken in, the noise from such a break in would have not only woken her up, but alerted her neighbours also. If it was a break-in. Suddenly, she was unsure, as if something in her mind tried to remember something it didn't want to. The shadow stopped next to her head, and she trembled in fear... Yet, again, she didn't actually physically move, just felt the sensation of the trembling. What she perceived as a hand made its way to the top of the comforter and grasped it. Slowly, the comforter was pulled lower until the light shined brightly in her eyes. Momentarily blinded, she blinked furiously, trying to adjust her eyes to the light. She balked as she felt her body lifted and she tried to cry out, to fight back, but she was unable. She wanted to bite, scratch, kick and scream at her assailant, but she just laid in his grasp. Finally, the realisation that she was fated to have whatever this was happen to her, she sobbed, quietly, and tried to close her eyes. Even that was denied her, too. The woman had watched enough crime shows. What drug did this person administer to her that kept her in this state? She was carried across the room and placed in a large bag, the sound of the zipper echoing down the hall. The sensation of lifting once again assaulted her mind and she wondered just how this was possible. The gait was uneven as she was carried, as if two different people were carrying the bag. An occasional grunt was all that she heard until she was loaded into what she assumed was a car. The journey felt as if it took forever, the darkness consuming her. She cried to herself, ideas and horrors running through her mind. What are they going to do with me? Who are they? Why me? She wished she could wipe the tears from her face, only to realise there really weren't any. Which, as oddly as it sounded, she felt. They ran down her cheeks, pooling at her throat. Yet, they really didn't. What is wrong with me? The vehicle stopped, the abrupt braking rolling her against the side of the bag. Her face smashed up against the material, making it hard to breathe. Violently, the bag was wrenched from the vehicle, jostling her roughly. Again, the uneasy gait rocked her in the bag, this time, nearly causing her to be motion sick. "Finally. We haven't had a good specimen in weeks," a smooth voice declared as the bag and girl were dropped onto a soft surface. A grunt replied, followed by the zipper's motion. "Picky, that's what you are." "Picky? Of course I am picky. This takes talent and hard work. If she isn't perfectly what I want, this whole affair will be nothing but ruin. You don't want that, do you?" Another grunt and the bag was opened to a dimly lit room. "I don't ask too many questions. I just want my end of the deal fulfilled." "Oh, you will get what you want. She is exactly what you want, you just don't know it yet." A hand reached into the bag, grabbing her arm and lifted her into the open. "I mean, just look at her. Perfection." "Those hideous pajamas aren't going to do, not going to make her worth selling." An older man, perhaps in his sixties, looked her over. "Oh, no, they won't do. I already have the perfect outfit for her. She will be desired." The light played games with her eyes. Yes, one man seemed old enough to be her grandfather, but the other...was more like her age. And just what were they talking about? What was going on? * * * * * * She awoke in a chair, arms tied to the sides. Her body, it seemed, had been bent and situated so she stayed upright and still. Again, she had no control over her movements, her eyes, mouth, fingers. She sat helplessly as the younger man stared into her eyes. His contemplative face filled her view. She wanted to bite at him, gnash her teeth and attack, yet, she couldn't. He looked away for a moment and she heard the sound of metal hitting metal as he seemingly searched for something. When his eyes returned to her face, he was biting his bottom lip in concentration. "Where should we start, my lovely? Your face? Your shoulders? Perhaps your torso?" She looked her over with a discerning eye, then nodded his head. "Your face shall be my starting point. I believe that, once I see your face emerge, I will know what to do with the rest of you." The glimmer of silver winked off to the side. She tried to look at it, but she couldn't. He brought his hand closer to her, gently holding her face and smiled. With his other, he applied the metal to her skin and began to carve. Slow, strong strokes dug into her skin and she screamed. The pain was intense, it burned, felt as if pieces of her was being torn away. With each stroke, she felt as if she was going to die. She felt the blood run down her skin slowly. Its warmth made her shudder violently as he continued to carve gently into her face. First, he raked the tool over her forehead, cutting away the scars that she had received at age thirteen after falling out of a tree. The blood ran over her face, into her left eye and she tried to blink to remove the crimson stain from her vision. After what felt like an eternity, he stepped back and looked her over again. Seemingly satisfied, he moved to her cheeks. He plunged the tool into her flesh and dug. The muscle ripped, torn from the connective tissue. Her body shuddered violently as the pain attacked every nerve. He dug, moving the tool, picking up a new one that seemed smaller yet hurt more. The man stepped back and touched her face lovingly. She watched him pull back the offending appendage, and was surprised to see it clean. She expected something staining his hands as she felt his fingers stick to her blood-slick skin. "I think that is enough for now, my sweet. Perhaps I will come back later to work on you more." Her vision dimmed as he turned off the lights and she finally was lost to the darkness and unconsciousness. * * * * * * The lights flickered on, causing her to recoil from her surroundings. She felt herself blink, though she knew she really didn't. Looking around, she was indeed in that room, with that man... And his tools. He sat down in front of her, inspecting her face, touching it gently. She reeled from the pain of his touch, but he didn't seem to care. Every nerve in her face screamed out as he casually wiped a warm, wet cloth across her skin. He nodded, seemingly content and looked at her torso, shoulders and arms. He clucked his tongue. "This... Will not do. What kind of life did you live, young lady? If you ask me, not one worthy of a lady. I must fix this." He reached into his tool box, the metal chiming as his fingers moved through them. Finally, he settled on one of the tools and looked her over. Cradling one of her arms, he held it in front of her. He applied the tool to her arm, pulling it methodically across her skin. She watched in horror as the skin peeled off of her arm, exposing the muscle beneath. Blood flowed freely, and she wanted to look away before she became ill. His attention was rapt as he turned her arm over, digging the tool into her shoulder and tugging hard down the back, taking more of her flesh off. She felt herself shaking violently as the pain overwhelmed her senses. She heard as each piece of flesh fell to the floor. He worked without pause, carving her arms down form the well-muscled appendage to something thin and wispy. He repeated the work on her other arm, periodically, grinding her shoulders down with a small machine that rasped at her skin. The pain was excruciating, she screamed, cried, cursed... Yet he never heard her. He never even flinched when she called him the one thing she knew all men hated being called. He worked on, ignoring her. But it is easy to ignore when your victim can't move her lips. Exhausted, sick and weak, she watched him examine her bloodied and dissected arms with joy. He smiled at her, his eyes twinkling. "Ah, much better. You had too much muscle, too much strength. The boys won't want you if you are stronger than them." She felt her own blood running, now slowly, down her legs. She retched, but couldn't throw up. She tried to close her eyes, tried to erase the image of him tearing her apart from her mind, but she couldn't. A voice called from somewhere far, a woman's voice, causing her assailant to rise from his seat. With one final glance her way, he turned off the light, and she gave up to the darkness and allowed her mind to drift into oblivion. * * * * * * The light jolted her awake. He was already sitting before her, tools in hand. She found herself completely without clothing and was furious. Not that she didn't expect this day to come, but even so, it had still affected her. Had she the energy, she thought, she would have mauled him by now. She watched at the tool loomed close to her chest. He studied her form closely, cocking his head, almost as if unsure how to proceed. "I have to say, there isn't much I need to do with your chest. Which is a relief, since I know I have screwed up this part of the female body more times than I wish to admit." The tool was gently plied to her flesh, carving here, sculpting there. She felt the skin tear, the tool digging just into the muscle underneath. The burning sensation of his tool raking her flesh made her head feel as if it was going to explode. The blood ran freely down her chest and over her stomach. She felt it pool in her lap before finally funneling down her legs. She watched his face as he concentrated on carving her shape, making her chest what he imagined it should be, not what she was given at birth. He moved to her stomach, adjusting the chair so that it moved back, until she lay prone. The tool moved slowly, nicking here, carving there. She writhed inside herself, desperately trying to get free. Tears fell, burning the exposed muscle and sinew that made up her face now, the salt aggravating her wounds. Every inch of her body that he had played with thus far roared in pain. Blood congealed or dried, causing more pain. When he moved her, it ripped open wounds that had begun to scab over. And through all of it, her voice was never heard. He moved to her legs and pulled out a different tool, one with a large blade. He shook his head in disappointment. "Worse than your arms. How could you allow yourself to become so hard? How could you?" His voice rose, alarming her. He plowed into her leg, digging aggressively. Each stab, each rip into her flesh sent such painful shock through her, that she lost consciousness, only to be pulled out of it through a new pain. He worked fiercely, cutting flesh, tearing muscle, carving her legs more and more as his apparent anger began to be displayed across his face. "Why did you let yourself develop such musculature? Why? It's appalling!" A tool scraped under her skin, scooping out tissue. "Did you not love yourself enough? Did you not think that someone would care if you made yourself look more like a man than a woman?" A chunk of flesh fell to the floor, cut out by a blade. Her blood ran to the floor, pooling beneath the chair. "Why must women think they need to be so muscled, so strong? Don't you all know that it is disgusting?!" She screamed, over and over, for him to stop. She tried to will herself unconscious, so that she would not feel him ripping her body apart. But nothing, nothing worked. She watched, terrified, as he plied his tools to her legs. She watched as blood and flesh was carelessly flung out of his way. Finally, as her body began to give out, her heart pounding and her eyes seeing red, he stopped. He breathed hard as he sat back to look at her. His face was flushed, a vein in his forehead expanding with each heartbeat. Swallowing slowly, he lifted her to her feet. He spun her limp form, examining each inch. Here and there he used a tool to touch up spots, smooth out a bump or carve out a detail. Finally, he sat her back down and stepped away. "My apologies, my sweet, for my outburst. I just get so frustrated with women who allow themselves to become corrupted into abhorrent figures. Tomorrow, we shall finally use you as you were meant to be. I hope you are happy." The room darkened and she sobbed silently into hands that didn't move. * * * * * * He dressed her in silk and velour; bright whites and dark greens flowed about her. She watched as the white silks became saturated with her blood. With each tug on the material to get the dress in place on her body, she felt all the pain from the last few days...or was it weeks, revisit her. The pain made it hard to see what the man was doing. Eventually, he stood her up, placing a brace around her waist to keep her on her feet. He styled her hair and applied makeup on her raw and torn face. Once he was done, she heard a grunt, then saw the old man step in front of her. "Good enough. She will do well." * * * * * * She looked out from her perch, horrified as a young woman picked her up and looked into her green eyes. "I wish I looked like you. I had always dreamed of looking like one of the porcelain dolls that I played with as a child."
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