Sorrow-A collage of words.
Pain.
Deep.
Why?
No.
Feel.
Suffer.
I.
Love.
You.

My last eternal bleeding.
As you have scared me so.
My heart can't get the feeding,
it needs to make me go.

Go out of bed.
Go out of pain.
Go out of fear.
Go out of life.

Pain.
Deep.
Why?
No.
Feel.
Suffer.
Please.
I.
Love.
You.

My tears, they fall.
They soak me wet.
They are a wall,
I can't forget.

Forget about you.
Forget about pain.
Forget about fear.
Forget about life.

Pain.
Deep.
Why?
No.
Feel.
Suffer.
Please.
Dark.
I.
Love.
You.

I think about
The times we shared.
I let them out,
They make me scared.

Scared of you.
Scared of me.
Scared of fear.
Scared of life.

Pain.
Deep.
Why?
No.
Feel.
Suffer.
Please.
Dark.
Need.
I.
Love.
You.

I'd get you back
At any cost.
I'm off my track,
Because you're lost.

Lost from you.
Lost from me.
Lost from us.
Lost from life.

Pain.
Deep.
Why?
No.
Feel.
Suffer.
Please.
Dark.
Need.
Beg.
I.
Love.
You.

I wish you well
as we dream about tomorrow.
We have both fell.
We have felt the sorrow.

Sorrow from you.
Sorrow from me.
Sorrow from us.
Sorrow from-



Suffer
Why do you do those things you do? Those things that are oh so painful. They kill me, destroy me, haunt me. Lies, secrets, you lost honesty.
Do you want me to regret the things I've done? Because I'm not the one who should say sorry. Sorry for your lies, your secrets.
It's all your fault, and you know it. That's your insecurity, not my problem, anymore. Like it used to be. But why?
Is it because we do not blend? But we both know that we do. I suffer without you. You suffer without me.
We were so complete, it's just one thing. Weren't you mine? Can't we forgive each other?
Won't it be better to love, as one? Just you and me. Again. Yes. It will.
Right now, we hurt everyone; we're a giant tornado of endless pain.
If we can say the word sorry, our love will be back. Finally.
Won't you love life when it's right on track? With me?
I know that I will, all the woeful suffering gone.
That's what it's like now, pain, always.
It'd be nice to love you once more.
Just like it used to be, I love it.
I love you, and always will.
We fought, we forgive.
We have no sorrow.
We have new hope,
That's without
Suffering.


One Look
Just one look at you,
and my heart simply falls.
I thought love was untrue,
but I was wrong, after-all.

You are a beauty,
because you are mine.
I can't believe you love me,
despite the others you left behind.

But I look into your eyes,
such a delicate blue.
Are they the prize
that makes me love you?

Or is it your smile,
So friendly and soft?
It stays for a while,
and takes me aloft.

Your laugh, is my guess,
such a sweet and full tone.
It is so priceless,
for it, my love's grown.

I've learned I don't care,
why our love is so deep.
'Cause our love is there,
from meeting to eternal sleep.

The Torch
Burning with ambition,
believing in no fear.
We will still behold the flame
that has gathered us all here.

We with fire instead of hearts,
to lead us on our way.
We with strength to believe
we shall rise this very day!

Desire, hope, truth, and love,
all unite as one, the same.
And this object is no other than
the one, the only flame.

The flame that holds our glory tight,
and feeds us through joy and pain.
That flame is the very thing
that drove us all insane!

We are all one, through this flame,
united, through this fire.
The fire will lead us through the war!
This Torch we all desire!

Warmth
I look into your eyes,
when I'm feeling scared.
They seem to clear the skies,
they show the love we've shared.

I reach for your hand,
when I'm not feeling strong.
It lets me understand
I'm where I belong.

I listen to your words,
when I don't feel like me.
They lift me up like birds
and my choice, I then can see.

I fall into your arms,
when I feel confused.
When I feeling harmed,
you let me know I'm not abused.

You are needed,
to keep me alive.
And I always will believe in
the warmth that makes love thrive.

The Thoughts Trilogy

Nightmare
I close my eyes,
And fall asleep.
Around they come,
Around they creep.

They haunt my soul,
And trap my head.
The horrific scenes,
Come once again.

The mourning sobs,
The painful screams,
Every night,
In my dreams.

These haunted thoughts,
Come without control;
They're scaring me,
they scar my soul.

Now I wake up,
relieved to be free.
But I know this night,
they will be hunting me.

Dream
I lie in bed,
silent and tired.
I close my eyes,
with sleep desired.

Visions of sunshine,
joy, and love.
Places with laughter
I've always hoped of.

And that's where I am,
this paradise.
Where everything seems
to happen right.

A hug over here,
and a kiss over there.
Happiness and peace
fill the air.

This place inspires me
to be my dream.
To love all that I see,
and to reach the extreme.

Then I wake up,
my dreamy land lost.
But I will be back
at any cost.

I need that beauty,
that hope, to inspire.
I need my dreams,
they are my desire.

Daydream
I sit here alone,
I'm bored, I'm confused.
Why is no one here?
I feel forgotten and abused.

I can hear their voices saying,
we will be there soon.
But when I look at the clock,
It's an hour past noon.

But then it hits me
I don't have to be alone.
In my head there is no end,
no place I cannot go.

Here I'm locked in a dusty dungeon,
trying to break free.
And now I am a princess,
hoping a knight will come save me.

Watch out for the Rusty Bandit
That's walking around town.
Now I am walking down the aisle
in my beautiful wedding gown.

There is no limitation,
to what can, or cannot be.
My dreams: the endless boundaries,
to escape from life and be free.

Helpless
Another harsh reality,
where fear is in the air.
Tragedies are everywhere;
miracles are rare.

Everything is bad news.
Hope is the only joy.
Death is having so much fun,
with the whole world as his toy.

Peace, and life,
and joy, and love.
Is what we all
are dreaming of.

But stuck inside
this world of fear,
there isn't any
of that here.

Over here
there is a war.
Innocents lie
on the blood-soaked floor.

A child's whipped,
a country's bombed.
The world can't seem,
to get along.

One person is so helpless,
only the world can give us peace.
But if everyone can change for good,
the hatred will finally cease.

Trap
You took everything
I thought I knew,
stole my world
and made it you.

I was lost
in the world of tears;
it combined
all of my fears.

But when I found you,
you held me tight.
I thought everything
had turned out right.

But it's not,
you're a trap.
Lure me in
and then you snap.

I can't let go
of our once-shared love.
But it's clear that you
have had enough.

Wash my tears
and close my eyes.
Hold me tight
and we will fly.

Back and forth,
from love to hate.
Do I trust a kiss,
Or is it bait?

I love you,
but do you love me?
Or are you just a trap,
plain as can be?

Never Forever
My only trust,
My only fear.
Every emotion
tied in this tear.

Falling soft,
so tight, so true.
Just like the times
I spent with you.

Your hidden smiles
with shining eyes.
You sheltered me
from all of the lies.

You were my truth,
my destiny.
I was as happy
as I could be.

But present turned to past,
and the future settled in.
Our love was nothing,
but your one and only sin.

Your picture lies
in my broken frame
to show the world
I'm full of shame.

Shattered hopes and
shattered dreams.
I see you
in all my dreams.

My life is lost,
it's now or never.
Forget you.
Love's Not Forever.

Fear the Flame (Konnan's Tale)
The letter comes to me.
I read it, without a care.
I can't believe a word it says,
My family's close to despair.

I need to help them,
But how? Why me?
I'm only a blacksmith,
As anyone can see.

But there's the local hero!
Who saves people all around.
Perhaps they can help me
Save my family's town.

I think of the burning village,
I cringe, I cry, I scream.
I try to wake up slowly,
But this isn't a bad dream.

But then the hero comes to the shop,
I gain a newfound hope.
I know that they will surely
Cure this downhill slope.

Hero goes off to save the day!
So alone, I wait.
I never thought that I would
Rely so much on Fate.

Suddenly I see the Hero,
Can't wait to the hear the news,
That everyone is again safe,
And that dragon has the blues.

But the Hero tells me,
He tried, but he had failed.
I just couldn't take it,
I ran to the corner and wailed.

A voice spoke inside me,
You are a selfish jerk, it said.
You just sit here thinking,
When you're family's blood's been shed.

I knew that what it said was true.
They deserved more than a tear.
I must try to avenge them all,
No matter how much I fear.

I went to see a friend of mine.
He is the red mage, Xan.
I know I can have trust in him,
He'd help me if he can.

"Fight Fire with Fire,
to win the game,
To finally end,
Akriloth's reign."

The words making perfect sense,
With them, I'd follow through.
Konnan's out of buisness,
Drakonnan's missed his cue.

I shall be the best there is!
I shall avenge my family's death!
I will kill Akriloth,
While he's taking his last breath.

My reign is here!
It starts today!
No one
will get in my way!

This is not about money,
not about fame!
This is for my family!
So fear my flame!

I am fire.
I am the burn.
I will win,
You all will learn.

Tears of the Innocent
*Ode to Kerli, and her song Butterfly Cry

I'm sorry,
I see your pain,
I see the blood,
I see it stain.

The darkest tears fall,
the flower grows.
It spreads the fear
wherever it goes.

But hope is not lost,
love is still here.
Joy will come,
when the skies are clear.

The butterfly's rise,
and begin their chant.
Tears fly around
to do what they can't.

All the people
who felt their care
could feel the peace
fill the air.

Times are rough,
but they are great.
The darkest soul
can be a saint.

Rejoice the world
and love it's joy.
The world's a game;
life's a toy.

The butterfly's cry
to save the day.
To lift our hearts
in every way.

Feel the love,
forget all pain.
All will cherish
the joyful reign.

Love.
Love.
Love.

Actress
Who Am I?
I'm an actress,
I dance, I sing.
I can be
anything.

Who am I
I'm a poet.
I write, I rhyme.
I write down my life
to pass the time.

Who Am I
I believe
you must be you.
No one else,
can do what you do.

But, Who Am I?
That,
I don't know.
What makes me, me?
That others can't show.

I am an actress.
I can play any role,
yet, my own, I can't.
I change so quick,
from silence to rant.

What will I do?
Will I be unknown
or go down in history?
Who am I?
To me, it's a mystery.

Fallen
Twenty-Seven.
Echoes in my head.
I can't see it.
She's dead.
She's dead.

Only Twenty-Seven.

Tragedy struck
a tragedy named
Breast Cancer.

A year,
and sixth months
pass.

Freedom.
For a week.

Tumors in two new places,
The Lungs.
The Brain.

Both removed,
only to have moved
to the spine.

3 remaining months
Pass.

They tell her,
Death is on the rise.
Maybe a month.

Most likely a week.

Morning Breaks,
and so does her soul.
So does our hearts.

She has fallen,
into the darkest part of life.
Death.

Rest In Peace.
Forever.
Natalie.

1982-2009

Simple
I have these memories,
Of those perfect melodies.
The beauty of pain,
Haunts us again
And we're lost without our remedies.

Music leaves your hand flowing,
Leaving me knowing
You're the lyrics to my song,
It was you all along,
And our love is growing.

Every note that you sing,
Makes me fly on your wings.
Your voice, so complete.
And you are so sweet,
The musical king.

The thoughts I write,
From morning to night,
Are all for you.
And all are true,
About our love and it's flight.

You take my insanities,
And turn them to realities,
All through your voice.
I'm left with no choice,
I'll love you through all calamities.

Greater love, note by note.
Disbelief, that's that what I wrote,
Through our living care,
We will not dispair.
And the music keeps us afloat.

Our simple secrets, all wrote down,
With complex tunes, rhythm, and sound.
Simply keeping us together,
Shining in the darkest weather,
Keeping our simple love abound.

Heart Attack
Burning Inside,
Feeling Alive.
You kiss her lips,
As I quietly hide.

Is this true?
Is this what I see?
It was my lips last night,
When you were with me.

I want to scream,
I want to die,
I don't want to believe
Our love was a lie.

My heart is swelling,
Pounding my chest.
Harder each time,
Not letting me rest.

My tears are refreshing,
Cooling as they fall.
My breath is short and quick,
And you hear the call.

Around the corner,
I see your face.
Covered with lipstick,
Her bloody embrace.

The world's getting fuzzy,
I'm going to faint.
My fever is rising,
The real world is restraint.

Is this the end
Of our loved fairy-tale?
Did our joyous memories
Have to fail?

As I say "Good-Bye" to you,
All my love you then take,
Thanks for giving me nightmares,
And for my Heart's Break.

Vampire
"It's just a legend,"
They commonly spoke,
Any story of blood-suckers,
Was only a hoax.

No one believes it's possible,
To drink blood every meal.
And though I'll never say,
I believe they are real.

I don't know why,
I just believe in the beasts.
Perhaps I want to be one,
To drink blood at a feast.

A few nights past, a man came,
He's new to the town.
He bought a small house,
But no one sees him around.

Tonight I'll sneak out,
When it's no longer light.
I bet he's a vampire,
He'll make me one with his bite.

Sneaking out of the house,
And into the night,
With only a candle,
To wield me light.

There he is! I see him!
And he sees me!
He's runs to my side,
Ever so quickly.

I smile at him,
He smiles in return.
What sharp teeth, I note,
Before I feel the burn.

Whipped inside of me,
His teeth, his pain.
Was my pain now,
Driving me insane.

I try to break free,
I refuse to give in,
But with fangs in my neck,
He lets me have no win.

Is this what I wanted?
I don't anymore.
The life I once lived,
Has closed the door.

A monster am I,
A monster I become,
But there's no turning back,
There's work to be done.

Cursed forever and always,
To suck life from my loved,
I am now the cursed Vampire.
Needing nothing but blood.

Good-Bye, My Love
A starry night,
A storming sky.
You look at fate,
Pain fills your eye.

A scream surrounds me,
As you look my way.
That feel of love,
Turns to dismay.

What about is different?
Or is it I who's changed?
Yet there's an eerie feeling,
As you speak my name.

Fear fills my body,
When you kiss my lips.
Never before has it felt
As gruesome as this.

And the part that kills me,
Is when you so gently sigh.
My breath seems to escape me,
And you leave me to die.

Snowflake
Falling so ever sweetly
On the white-covered ground,
Falling quickly and swiftly,
Making no sound.

The soft little ninjas,
That light up my life,
And fill me with joy
When it's Christmas time.

So cold and so fragile,
They dance in the sky.
They fall from the heavens,
And bring tears to me eye.

A drop on my tongue,
And the Earth below.
Covering the world
With delicate snow.

I make little angels,
I dance through the town.
Rejoicing the picture
Of snow falling down.

The world turns to white,
A feeling held dear,
A delicate symbol,
That Winter is here.

Last Gear
Lights
Flashing
Hands
Shaking
Tears
Falling
Hearts
Breaking

Glass
Shattered
Blood
Leaking
Strange
Noises
Soft
Speaking

Feel
Nothing
Not
Breathing
Steps
Pounding
I'm
Dreaming

Can't
Focus
Mind
Racing
So
Tired
Still
Waiting

Black
Engulfs
Black
Surrounds
Black
Silence
Black
No Sound

Light
Shining
Black
No more
Frowns
Sadden
Tears
Galore

My
Family
Tears
So soft
Black
Enters
Friends
Are lost

Lights
Vanished
Body
Hallow
I'm
Leaving
Death
Follows

myst
remember me,
my life, my love
i remember you,
my mind, my fear
i still feel your hand
a sign, a hope
do you feel mine too

your breath stands still
i think, i know
you make me cold
shiver, believe
the moon looks upon us
to shine, to feel
as the story grows old

as soft as angels' tears
we're lost, we're gone
your lips against mine
we shall, remain
we thought we would be
breathe in, breathe out
as a star that shines

where did you go
why me, my love
why did i stay
to lose, to die
please take me back
find me, hide me
no longer stray

midnight moons
i see, i see
singing stars
take me, a trip
i fall asleep
an eye, to close
to no alarm

i return home lost and confused
but why, why me
a chance with you i have missed
goodbye, forever
so i stand here alone with my tears
error, error
until the world is surrounded in myst

Stealing
Are you afraid of the dark?
Of being alone?
Of footsteps and shadows
When no ones home?

Or is it safety
When no one's there?
No one to hurt you,
Yet no one to care.

It's a dark, dark gray.
Not black or white.
What the best is
Is not always right.

Did someone whisper your name?
In the chilling cold night?
Or was it just the wind,
Sparking your fright.

Rustling leaves,
Or footsteps sneaking?
Is it only the wind?
Or is someone speaking?

Is there a shadow
Where nothing is there?
A child's prank,
Or a deathly scare?

I hear you scream,
I hear your call.
I'm running to you
But will you fall?

Here, take my hand.
I'll keep you safe.
As I tie you down
And steal you away.