Eukara Vox
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Real by Eukara Vox [13:55] <LostInSydney> You can't be serious? [13:55] <Sureen> I am totally serious! It's as if no one remembers that there is a world outside of this. Reality check, for goodness' sake... [13:56] <LostInSydney> heh, if you required the reality check, people may actually start believing they have a life outside this company. [13:56] <Sureen> God forbid THAT happen. [13:56] <LostInSydney> Hey, speaking of, how are things on your end? You mentioned that there were some problems at home.... Anything get fixed? [13:56] * Sureen sighs [13:57] <LostInSydney> I take that as a no... [13:58] <Sureen> They just don't understand. No one does. They think that I am too attached to... this. But, I am not on here all the time. I go outside, I leave the house... Heck, I have a lot on my plate. But no... that isn't enough. I am tired of arguing. [13:59] <LostInSydney> So nothing you say or do gets them to understand? [14:00] <Sureen> I wish [14:01] * LostInSydney bites her lip. "I wish there was something I could do to help." [14:01] <Sureen> You do enough. The fact that you are my friend does wonders for me. [14:01] <LostInSydney> I still wish there was more I could do. [14:05] <Sureen> Crap... I am being told that I have to go. I just got on and already they are on my ass. [14:05] <LostInSydney> :( Sorry, Sureen. [14:06] <Sureen> Not as much as I am. *hugs* I better go before hell breaks loose. [14:07] * LostInSydney hugs. "Talk to you later. [14:06] <Sureen> Later Syd. "I know. God! Can't you just give me a minute to say goodbye?!" "Give you a minute to say goodbye? Why? It's not like the people on there are really your friends. Just another name, another day." His mother's voice shouted from the back of the house. "Saying goodbye is ridiculous, Kyle. They aren't real people, not like the people you talk to in the 'real world' as you say." "How would you know? You never make any attempt to understand or see what I do!" Kyle shouted back. "I don't need to. All I have to do is take note of how much time you spend talking to people without faces, without flesh and blood in front of you..." Kyle pushed away from his computer, trying to block out his mother's grating voice. He could still hear his mother complaining, but now the rant became a conversation with herself, mostly griping about how this generation was a lost cause who will never understand what it means to write a letter or really know a person face to face. Shaking his head, he got out his trig homework. If anything, that was definitely going to take his mind off of her incessant complaining. I wish she would just try and understand. Casey sighed as she clicked on the farm she was tending on Facebook. It was something to keep her busy while her housemates partied down the hall. She had better things to do. She should be doing her homework, as she had a immunology test in two days. It was just that... Sureen's situation bugged her. Not like she could do anything, as he was apparently on the other side of the world. Still, she couldn't concentrate on her studies knowing that Sureen was miserable. He never fully elaborated on what was happening. But she knew enough to know he was unhappy. His parents worked constantly, rarely having any time for he and his siblings. At sixteen, if he was telling the truth, he was the parent. "Is it really that hard to make ends meet that the parents have to work so much, neglecting the family?" Though the question wasn't meant for anyone, one of her housemates had been passing by. "Talking to yourself about that boy again, yes? Really Casey, you need to forget about that boy. He's probably some 40 year old with no life. Besides, think about it. If he is telling the truth, it could be that his parents want a certain lifestyle that requires them to work so much." Casey sighed. "But... why would you sacrifice your family for your lifestyle?" The housemate backed up and stuck her head into Casey's room. "Because, different people have different priorities. Perhaps they think that this is taking care of their family." "It sucks." The housemate shook her head. "If you aren't going to join the party, study for your test, Ms. Doctor-to-Be. Stop fretting over the boy across the world." The housemate bounded off to fetch more snacks for the party. Casey just sat there, staring at the farm that contained animals and trees that made up the colourful display. Finally, she closed the window and put her things away. There was to be no studying that night. She proceeded to go through her night routine, finally laying down to sleep. [15:23] <Sureen> I don't want to be here anymore. [15:23] <LostInSydney> Sureen, you can't just go. What would you do? [15:24] <Sureen> Enjoy my freedom? [15:24] <LostInSydney> Come on, you know that isn't what will happen. You are 16. 16 year olds don't just run away from home and suddenly make it big and live a good life. [15:26] <Sureen> It seems much better than anything I have here. [15:26] <LostInSydney> It wouldn't be. How would you get money, food, clothes, a place to stay? Sure, at 16 you could have a job, but don't you have to have a viable address to do that... references... parental permission? [15:27] <Sureen> You aren't helping, Syd. [15:27] <LostInSydney> Good [15:28] <Sureen> >_> [15:29] <LostInSydney> As much as I hate to say this, you have to look at more than just yourself here. What about your sisters? What would they do if you weren't around to help them? They are younger than you. If you are all they have in the way of "parent" what's going to happen to them if there is no one around to tell them right from wrong? [15:30] <Sureen> I don't want to think about it. [15:31] <LostInSydney> Tough. I am going to make you think about it. The oldest is nearly 15 right? So, imagine what will happen if there is no one to keep an eye on her. Say a cute guy comes along. [15:31] <Sureen> Stop [15:31] <LostInSydney> And if you aren't there, do you think your parents have the time to make sure she is staying clean and healthy, that she isn't doing anything she shouldn't be? No, they won't because they are too busy bringing in their paychecks. What would you do if you came home and found out your sister, who has a chance to be something since she is so smart, pregnant and getting ready to drop out to take care of the baby? [15:32] <Sureen> don't [15:32] * LostInSydney sighs. "And what about the other two. If the older sister has messed up, won't they? I mean, what kind of role model is a pregnant 16 year old in terms of responsibility. She will be so taken up by her own issues that she can't watch over them. What if they find drugs an escape from life? What if? [15:35] <Sureen> Why are you doing this?! [15:36] <LostInSydney> Because, Sureen, I have to. I care about you. We've been friends for over a year and I care. I know what would happen. You would runaway, fail, come home and see what happened in your absence and feel like a bigger failure. And there would be no one there to pick you up and hug you. [15:38] <Sureen> I am too young for this, all of this! Why?! [15:40] <LostInSydney> I don't know, Sureen. I don't have an answer, though I wish I did. If I could... I would fly over and fix this, slap some sense into your parents. Sure, you all have everything your heart desires, except parents. And that infuriates me. [15:42] * Sureen cries. "I just want to be a 16 year old guy with teenage problems. I am tired of being dad. [15:46] *LostInSydney holds and hugs. "I can't be there physically, but I am always here. [15:46] <Sureen> I know. I just wish it was different. I wish my parents were around. I wish I could actually meet you in person to share all this with... I wish my life was different. I am envious of this friend at school. Well, not like total friend [15:46] <Sureen> but an acquaintance friend. Both of her parents work, yet they are always home. And... they don't have a lot of money. I know they can barely pay the bills and her clothes aren't exactly great. I mean, WalMart can only take someone so far. But... she is happy. She smiles all the time. Her siblings and her laugh so much. And when I see them all [15:47] <Sureen> together, parents and kids, I am... well, jealous. [15:48] <LostInSydney> I don't know how to react to that. [15:48] <Sureen> They have barely anything, yet they are a million times happier than I am. How is that fair? [15:48] <LostInSydney> I can't answer that without being mean, Sureen. And at the moment I prefer not to say those things. [15:49] * Sureen frowns. "That sounds almost ominous." [15:48] <LostInSydney> Perhaps I am not the one to find the answer to it. Maybe you need to. [15:38] <Sureen> That's a load of help >_> [15:48] <LostInSydney> Sometimes, Sureen, the answers we want and the answers we seek are not the same things. What if the answer to your question is something you don't want to know? Do you still want to know it? [15:49] <Sureen> Of course I do! [15:50] <LostInSydney> Think about that carefully. Sometimes, some answers aren't worth knowing. [15:49] <Sureen> This one is. [15:50] <LostInSydney> I will be here, as always, when you get your answer. I have a feeling you are going to go out and search as soon as you can. [15:53] <Sureen> Mom just popped in. I better go to bed before she starts in on me and my "unreal and unsubstantial" friends. [15:54] <LostInSydney> yeah, probably best. Talk to you later, ok? [15:55] <Sureen> Later Syd. and, thanks. [15:55] <LostInSydney> Anytime. "Hey, Monica?" Kyle ran up to a young girl in jeans and a T-shirt. The young lady turned around and paused. "Kyle?" She looked around, almost nervously. Kyle smiled and slowed to a stop in front of her. "Monica, can I ask you a question? I mean, besides that one?" She laughed and nodded her head. "Sure, as long as you can ask and walk at the same time. We have class to get to." "Of course!" Kyle grinned and walked beside her. "I was wondering, and please don't take this wrong or anything. I am not trying to be mean or rude or stupid. I just need to know." He took a deep breath. "Why are you and your family so happy all the time?" Monica looked at Kyle strangely. "What do you mean, happy all the time?" "I mean, well..." Ack, this is going to sound horrible, but I don't know how else to say it. "Whenever I see you, your siblings and your parents together, you all are really happy. But, well, I don't understand why. You seem to struggle along, you don't have a lot of money and yet, you are happy." Monica paused, her step faltering. "So, I can't be allowed to be happy because I am poor? Because I am not rich like you?" "No! That's not what I am saying. Please Monica, I said I didn't want you to take my question wrong. I just... I don't understand!" "It's easy. We love each other." She stepped away, leaving Kyle behind. Though she tried to hide it, he could see he made her cry. "Damn it." He stood in front of the small, single story house. The paint needed touching up and the yard was far from immaculate, but it was a home. He could tell. The toys in the yard were so used that the metal trucks were more rust than paint. There were places where it was obvious "construction" was going on. The miniature playground for the toddler was covered in leaves, pebbles and... dolls. Kyle hadn't spoken to Monica in two days. Being around her was awkward and no matter how much he wanted to apologise, take back his questions and ask better ones, he didn't have the strength to do so. He hadn't talked to Syd either since that day, humiliated beyond belief and not wanting to admit to her that he screwed up. Taking a deep breath, he raised his hand and knocked gently on the door. He held one flower, a lisianthus, his peace offering. Kyle knew Monica loved purple, so he figured this was a good step forward. The door swung open, a small girl stood in front of him. "Hi." Kyle looked down at her and swallowed. "Hi. Is... Is Monica here?" The little girl turned and ran away from the door, her bare feet slapping against the wood floor. "Monica!" Kyle winced as the little girl apparently ran around the house screaming for her big sister. "Monica, Monica, Monica, Monica, Monica!" "What, Cassidee?" "The door, Monica. There's a boy at the door." Kyle grinned despite his current situation. This Cassidee reminded him of his youngest sibling. "A boy? What are being silly about? There isn't a boy at the door." Kyle could hear her approach, even if she was a quiet walker. He watched as she reached out for the door and began closing it without even looking outside. That's when he heard Cassidee's feet against the floor, apparently running towards them both. "No! There is!" Monica groaned and opened the door, quite obviously about to prove her sister wrong when she saw Kyle standing on her front porch, flower in his hand. "See!" Cassidee squeezed by her sister and waved at Kyle. "I told you." Pulling her sister inside, Monica glared at Kyle. "What do you want?" "I..." His voice caught in his throat. "Well, I haven't all day! I have laundry to do and homework." Monica tapped her right foot impatiently. "I..." He pushed the flower forward, offering it to Monica. "I want to apologise to you. I never meant to hurt your feelings. I was trying to be realistic. I really wanted to know!" Monica narrowed her eyes and leans against the door frame. "Well, you have a brilliant way of showing it." "Please... just let me explain better. Give me another chance." Kyle looked at Monica, on the verge of tears. Taking the flower gently, she looked into his eyes. She had never seen a boy react like this. Perhaps he is telling the truth. "Fine, you get one chance, Kyle. Come in and pretend there aren't a ton of toys on the floor." She opened the door to let him in. Kyle stepped through, almost gingerly. It was true, there were toys everywhere. "It's... beautiful..." [15:23] * Sureen pounces. "It's been a few days." [14:56] <LostInSydney> "It's been a few days?!?!" That's all you have to say? If I had known what town you live in, I would have alerted the authorities to your disappearance! [14:56] <Sureen> Awww, you missed me! [14:57] <LostInSydney> I don't find this funny, at all Sureen. [14:57] <Sureen> But [15:00] <LostInSydney> I've been worried! Do you not remember what you spoke of the last time you were online? You were RUNNING AWAY! You were leaving, never coming back, wanting to ditch everything. [15:01] <Sureen> I'm sorry Syd... [15:02] <LostInSydney> At least you are alive. >_> [15:02] <Sureen> I... gosh, Syd, I wasn't thinking. I was busy doing what you told me to do and I just didn't think to let you know I was okay. [15:04] <LostInSydney> What I told you to do? [15:05] <Sureen> Yeah... you know, find answers? [15:05] * LostInSydney blinks. "You.. you did?" [15:06] * Sureen laughs. "Yes, I was!" [15:07] <LostInSydney> It took you 4 days? [15:07] <Sureen> Erm... yeah. It was rough. I did something stupid, had to rectify it and then had to think about what I learned. [15:08] <LostInSydney> Now I am very interested. Are you ok, first of all? [15:09] * Sureen smiles. "I am. And you were right, I didn't like the answer... but I needed to know. [15:09] *LostInSydney hugs [15:10] <Sureen> I made a fool of myself. The girl I told you about. Her name is Monica. And, well, even though I didn't mean to upset her in my questions, I did. I hurt her badly. I just didn't know how to ask the question without sounding like an ass. [15:12] <LostInSydney> Ah, I wish I could have seen that. [15:12] <Sureen> Verrrry funny, Syd. [15:12] <LostInSydney> Anyway... [15:13] <Sureen> It took me two days to work up the courage to go to her house and apologise. [15:14] <LostInSydney> Let me guess, you asked her about things with an emphasis on money? [15:14] <LostInSydney> Wow, two days... you must have really gotten yourself in trouble. [15:14] <Sureen> <_< [15:15] <Sureen> As I WAS SAYING... I took her a flower. She loves purple, so I took a purple flower and stood at her door and tried to apologise. I still couldn't talk right, but she let me in anyway to plead my case. Her house... wasn't the best, it wasn't the cleanest, I mean, toys EVERYWHERE. But... it felt like a home. It felt warm and nice. It felt what I always wanted... [15:17] <LostInSydney> Oh Sureen. [15:17] <Sureen> It's okay, really, Sid. We spoke for a few hours that evening. I was there when her parents came home and watched how everyone dogpiled on each other. And, Syd? Her parents looked exhausted, yet... they still let the kids do that. And before they could put down briefcase and purse, the kids were all already dragging them here and there [15:19] <Sureen> showing them this paper, asking them to check that homework... And they... they did everything their children asked them to. There was no yelling, exasperation or short nerves. It was nothing but love. Tired, worn out love, but love. I never heard them get short with the kids. Sure, there were reprimands and disappointed voices regarding [15:22] <Sureen> grades, but no one ran from the room crying, no one looked like they felt 2 inches tall. There were lots of "yes ma'am" and "yes sir" and then smiles. I had no idea things could be like that. [15:23] <LostInSydney> Different family, different ways of doing things. [15:23] <Sureen> But Syd... I would have thought that given their financial circumstances, it would be different. You always see it on TV> Poor families = bad homes. [15:24] <LostInSydney> TV isn't God, you know. [15:24] <Sureen> I know... Monica explained to me that at one time her father did have a high paying job, when she was younger. But, as an engineer for a big company, he worked long hours and was rarely home. She said one day he came home and said that enough was enough. No amount of money was worth it. [15:26] * LostInSydney nods [15:26] <Sureen> Monica said it wasn't until she was in middle school that she finally understood what he meant. But that was because she was old enough to ask the right questions. [15:27] <LostInSydney> And how did all this make you feel? [15:33] <Sureen> At first... I was angry. Angry at her, angry at me, angry at my parents. I was angry with her because she had the greatest life in the world. I hated that she was so happy. I kept asking why I couldn't be the one happy. [15:34] <Sureen> I was mad at myself for feeling that way towards her. Monica didn't do anything to me directly and it wasn't right that I was mad at her. But, I wanted what she did and knew I wasn't going to get it. [15:35] <LostInSydney> And your parents? [15:39] <LostInSydney> Sureen? [15:45] * Sureen sighs. [15:45] <Sureen> That anger cam later. I thought about all that I had seen and learned from Monica. And the more I thought about it, the more I was angry. So I asked my parents one night after they were both home from work to talk with me. I asked them why they worked so much. [15:46] <LostInSydney> And they said? [15:46] <Sureen> They said it was to make sure that me and my sisters had everything we needed. [15:47] <LostInSydney> I am thinking you weren't satisfied with that answer. [15:49] <Sureen> No. I asked them if they ever considered working less. You would have thought I was asking them to give up a lung of something. [15:50] <LostInSydney> Oh no... [15:51] <Sureen> It was unbelievable. They tag teamed me Syd. My mom went off on how I was an unappreciative brat, that I didn't appreciate how hard they worked to give me the life I had. Then she would put her head in her hands all dramatic like and my father would start on me, telling me that if I thought I could run the family better, then I was welcome to get a job and start paying the bills. [15:55] <LostInSydney> . . . [15:56] <Sureen> I never got in a word. They went on and on for hours about how they had built up this life and that they worked so it could be this way. I began to see things differently. It wasn't us, Syd, that they were working for. It was them. [15:57] <LostInSydney> Sureen, surely that isn't true. [15:57] <Sureen> I point blank asked them. "If I asked you to work less hours so that we could all do more together, would you?" [15:57] <Sureen> Their answer, in short, was "Then we would lose this life. I don't know about you, but it's a pretty sweet one. You get everything you want and more. Isn't that enough?" [15:57] <LostInSydney> that's not good [15:58] <Sureen> I stood up and went to leave their room. Before I opened the door to leave, I told them what I wanted. My voice was quiet because I didn't want to cry. But I told them. [15:58] <LostInSydney> What did you tell them? [15:55] <Sureen> I told them that I would gladly give it all up if it meant that we were a real family. Then I left and went to bed. [15:56] *LostInSydney hugs tightly [15:57] *Sureen hugs back. "I walked all the way to my room shaking." [15:57] <LostInSydney> How have things been since? [15:58] <Sureen> That was two days ago. They haven't spoken to me at all since then. My sisters have asked me why they are so mad right now and all I can say is that it isn't their fault. [15:59] <LostInSydney> They will figure it out, well, at least the older one will. [16:00] <Sureen> I am afraid of that, but she is smart. Should I tell her everything? [16:00] <LostInSydney> That is up to you, but put yourself in her shoes. [16:01] <Sureen> Then I will have to. [16:02] <LostInSydney> Just be careful. [16:02] <Sureen> Thank you, Syd. [16:02] <LostInSydney> For what? [16:04] <Sureen> For being here. If it hadn't been for you, I don't think I would be sane now. And, I don't think I would have Monica as a friend. She is more than just an acquaintance now, she is a real friend. And I love hanging with her family. A whole new world is opened up. [16:06] <LostInSydney> Glad to be of Service. :P [16:07] <Sureen> No, really. I have spent the last year that we've known each other ranting and complaining. You have put up with me a long time. [16:08] <LostInSydney> Isn't that what friends are for? [16:09] <Sureen> I know that now. I know a lot of things now and I think I am going to be a much better brother and friend. [16:09] <LostInSydney> You always were, Sureen. You just needed a bit more knowledge. [16:10] <Sureen> My name is Kyle. Oh! How did you do on your immunology test? [16:11] <LostInSydney> A+ [16:11] <Sureen> Sweet! You are going to make an awesome doctor one day. [16:12] <LostInSydney> Thanks Kyle. And, for the record, my name is Casey.
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