Hidden Tears


I.
My eyes are hollow
Looking into the sky
Tears are falling down
Too bad, 'cause I can't cry

II.
Hours were full of sorrow
Sadness reigns my mind
Beats were full of misery
Happiness which I can't find

III.
Chains devoured my Joy
It strangles my emotion
Blades have wounded me
Leaving a scar of affection

IV.
I am locked inside
The cage of miseries
Deep inside it's bleeding
Worse than the tragedies

V.
Crying behind happiness
Frowning behind a smile
Hiding to escape loneliness
Every square and every tile

VI.
The light is going to fade
And I won't let it happen
I will take any risk
Just to take you back again

VII.
How could I see you smile
If you are going away
I won't let you off every mile
Because I need you to stay

VIII.
Emotions are unknown
Each sorrow, each tear
Losing the one you loved
Is what I truly fear


~November 17 2010~

Confused Heartbeat


I.
I am pulled down again
By this infamous pain
I can't even think right
I am losing my sight

II.
Worse than an enigma
Mysteries in my mind
Riddles are so chaotic
Answers I cannot find

III.
You have left me behind
I know you didn't mean it too
Lying under and wounded
Now what should I do?

IV.
Will I let you go
Or will I fight what I feel
Anything I will do
In front of you I will kneel

V.
Am I hopeless about it
Am I too dumb to do it
Head is full of confusions
Full of sorrow emotions

VI.
Now we talk less than before
Too bad I don't know what to do
I am not mad about you
I feel pain but I don't want to

VI.
He's the one you chose
I will now let you go
But no! I won't give up
This love isn't enough

VII.
I want to lessen the pain
That's why I want to let you go
Is it the right thing to do
Decided, I will say No.

VIII.
The question is how
Tomorrow or right now
Do I need to shout
This love is what it is about

IX.
Come back I am waiting
Under the shed of love I'm standing
My heart is still beating
Because of you I am living


~November 24 2010~

Diary of Pain


I.
I can't take it again
I cannot pretend
That I felt no hurt
That I felt no Pain

II.
Feeling it deeply
I cannot hide it
It strangles my heart
Too clean, too neat

III.
May I ask you
If you love him too
'Cause I love you more
More than you knew

IV.
Are you contented?
You left me wounded
The only thing which can heal
Is your love I need to feel

V.
Just let me know
If he'll hurt you
'Cause I'll still be here
Still here for you

VI.
Even you have him
I won't stop loving you
A heartbeat is not meant to stop
Or my life won't continue

VII.
I will understand
The mistake you said
'Cause I'm still waiting
This love will never end

VIII.
Behind every smiles
I am crying enough
As I feel the sorrow
Every time I wake up

IX.
Behind every laughs
I am bleeding again
As I feel the pain
Right through from my veins

X.
As I burn every page
Tears are falling down
I don't want to find myself
In the diary of pain

XI.
As I tear another page
Sorrow reigns my anger
I don't want to find again
In the diary of pain

XII.
The last page I kept
Love have reigned again
Now I have found myself
In the diary's end


~December 1 2010~

Melt-Off


I.
I need to stay away
Keeping myself off from it
I need to stop the beat
Keeping my heart off from it

II.
Temperature's going high
I want to keep it higher
Healing my wounded skin
I want to make it over

III.
Starting the unwanted meltdown
Five, four, three, two, one
I promised to keep it frozen
But now I want to make it end

IV.
What I did isn't enough
Making you smile and laugh
Thanks for what you have did
Letting you go is what I need

V.
I do remember the times
And a lot of moments we had
The talks in the night
Making you smile when you're sad

VI.
I cannot even realize
That now I am going to melt it down
I thought it will be never
Now I need to leave this wounded town

VII.
I don't want this to happen
I don't want to feel it again
I want to lessen the pain
I want to quit and make it end

VIII.
Finally I found the antidote
Stopping the venom to spread in
While it flows through my veins
And heal the wounds on my skin

IX.
Forgetting it away
Melting the frozen down
Ending the eternal
The foolishness I've done

X.
Thanks for the smiles
The happiness you gave me
Sorry I want an end
I can't take it from stabbing me


~December 6 2010~

Until you Smiled


I.
Cannot even speak
Neither a smile
Nor staring at
Just for a while

II.
Silence through the walk
Crossing our paths again
Not even a single talk
When will avoidance end

III.
After the days
Those silent ways
I want to end now
Begging for the grace

IV.
One night you spoke
You were asking me
How am I now
Fine, do not worry

V.
After I heard your laughs again
The smiles I wanted to see
I remember the days
The days when you're with me

VI.
I thought it'll be the end
But you brought back it again
Now I'm done, moved on
And will never be alone

VII.
Wounds stayed long on my skin
Now it's healed, pain has gone
Never to say no more
The silence will be done

VIII.
You have brought back the smiles
Letting my heart, itself to rest
Making me comfort in the night
Filling up, the emptiness

IX.
Thanks for the smiles you bring
Help me start a new beginning
Forget the tragedy that came
I want to hear the laughs again


~December 7 2010~

Love vs. Hate


I.
Let the battle begin
Let us know which will win
Love versus its rival hate
Which do you think will be your fate

II.
Let your heart start its beat
Let it feel the love you need
Who do you think will be the right
The man/woman of your life

III.
They are like stars, they are millions
They are more, like a zillion
Do you feel it now since from the start
The only one who can win your heart

IV.
Going down, get yourself up
Because the fight isn't yet enough
If you have felt what you're looking for
The magical thing which you call love

V.
Hero always have a villain
Love always have a rival hate
Will you surrender yourself
Into the world of miserable fate

VI.
Don't let hate ruin the love
Don't let it break your wall
Don't let it stop the heartbeat
Or you will end into a dirty fall

VII.
Let the man/woman feel the love
Let them feel the magic of it
Share the best love you can give
Make the best magic spell out of it

VIII.
Love will always win over hate
Its magic is unstoppable
The best spell is to let it feel
Nothing in this world is impossible


~December 7 2010~

Living with You


I.
The darkness have pulled me down
To mess my life again
But with You, I can continue
Fight will never end

II.
I'm ready to war with world
And battle it for long
And with You, I'm confident
Because You make me strong

III.
It's fading, I need your hands
And lay it over me
My gray eyes, I'm losing sight
And Now I cannot see

IV.
So wicked, it won't quit dragging
Me into the hell
So hollow, I do feel nothing
Just after I fell

V.
You touched me, I felt your holiness
In every breath
Heal me in, I need your antidote
End is not yet

VI.
In this world, living with you
Is dying to heaven
I need you so don't leave me
I'm suffering again

VII.
I'm weakened, the devil whispers
Its noise is what I hate
Drag me up, and Bring the grace
Please strengthen now my faith

VIII.
We all live to die someday
And live with you again
The freedom to choose our way
The path to hell or heaven


~December 9 2010~

The Friend beside my Heart


I.
Thanks for everything
You're a truly friend
You never leave me
A relationship Until the end

II.
Whenever I'm alone
You're there to sit beside
In every time I cry
You are there to heal me inside

III.
The sorrow of each second
The times of agony
The tears are falling down
I need your warm embrace on me

IV.
The moments and memories
Your tears and funny smiles
I even miss you more
When you're away for thousand miles

V.
Take a photograph
Will it be the last
I don't care about it
'Cause I need you, Time's running fast

VI.
The happiness and joy
The times I hear you laugh
Those are memorable
The moments are still not enough

VII.
Thanks for sitting beside
My heart, I'm satisfied
Underneath you kissed me
Felt the love even paralyzed

VIII.
The friend behind the love
You didn't let the link apart
In my life you're now a part
The kiss you put into my heart


~December 11 2010~

Shadow's Note


I.
I am always here for you
As I stand right beside you
Do not cry, dry up your tears
Let's face together our fears

II.
I am here, I never leave
I love you that's why I live
'Till omega calls my name
I won't forget 'til the end

III.
No one cares, yet no one must
Touch my skin like it's the last
Hold it tight, my sparkling hand
Don't let go, with you I'll stand

IV.
I do not want to say bye
Behind my smile, now I cry
I will be leaving my friend
Don't worry, it's not the end

V.
Please Record your voice again
Before I sleep, I'll listen
Wishing to dream you at night
I will not forget you, alright.

VI.
Go Look behind, I am there
I'll be your shadow, I swear
Sitting and standing beside
Let memories heal you inside

VII.
Try to close your crying eyes
Open it up 'til it dries
Then go look and stare at me
Take care of yourself, I plea

VIII.
See you next time my great friend
We'll see each other again
I will stay right in your heart
I Love You, It's not the end


~December 12 2010~

Beneath my Skin


I.
Nothing have left, But not alone
Blood flows again, Over my bone
The words I heard, Could it be lies
Don't hide it in, Behind your eyes

II.
Over the bed, I am not fine
Your confused head, And so is mine
It is your choice, Fate will tell you
I cannot blame, Mistakes on you

III.
Do you regret, The choice you've made
Tell me the truth, Else I will fade
I cannot seek, Deeply inside
The affection, I want to find

IV.
I want an end, But why I can't
The love and hate, The paths I went
I want the truth, Give me a sign
Slowly, the love, Will fade in time

V.
I want to feel, Beneath my skin
Right from your heart, What do they mean?
I want to know, I want to see
Behind your eyes, Why should it be?

VI.
Love lift me up, Carry me on
I still have breath, I'm not alone
I'm losing you, I'm paranoid
You are away, And I am void

VII.
Can't understand, I need a clue
Something's missing, Friend, I need you
The truth behind, I want to find
With my own eyes, I won't be blind

VIII.
Let me touch you, Feel it beneath
Deeply inside, From underneath
The scar you left, Will stay on me
I have asked fate, Why should it be?


~December 15 2010~

Sky


I.
Wandering into the sky
Watching with my naked eye
"It is so broad", as I sigh
I can't reach it is too high

II.
Under, carelessly I lie
Wishing that myself could fly
I would never say goodbye
I would never fall and die

III.
My Love's as broad as the sky
With my lips that do not lie
Take my heart give it a try
It will not be dead and dry

IV.
Birds are flying in the air
The sweetness of every pair
Nests that show the love they care
Love can be found everywhere

V.
Look and try to watch the skies
Remember the smiles and cries
Below are masses of seas
The moments, and tragedies

VI.
You can see love underneath
On the earth, from sky beneath
Lift me up, please hold my hand
Into the heaven, 'Til the end

VII.
You're my angel, you're my love
You give meaning to my heart
The smiles you put in my face
In my skies you're now a part

VIII.
Soon myself will fade away
Beside your being I will stay
From above, I will guard you
I say this 'cause I Love You


~December 21 2010~

Cold


I.
Lonely, lying on the bed
Couldn't sleep thinking of you
You wouldn't get out of my head
My eyes see a colder view

II.
'Twas the eve before the day
A shadow won't get out of my way
Hearing your voice deep inside
I wish I am at your side

III.
Holiday came without you
I was restless thinking of you
I wish that you did not go
So I wouldn't feel the sorrow

IV.
As I find the perfect joy
Can't forget you all day long
Affection that bothers me
In my heart where you belong

V.
The only way to relieve the cold
Is your presence that special day
But I am here, without you
Celebrating the holiday

VI.
I received the messages
The notes you left for me to read
I have felt in every word
I was the one that you need

VII.
Sorry I was gone that day
Sorry I didn't made it on time
But if you knew what I felt
That you won't get out of my mind

VIII.
I hope you will understand
I hope you will hold my hand
And say, please smile, it's okay
'Cause in your heart, I will stay


~December 25 2010~

Out of Reach


I.
I am missing you so bad
I can't forget that I'm sad
You keep blocking on my way
How is it? You are away

II.
I would like to touch your skin
How can I? You're out of reach
You really bother my nights
You won't let go of my sight

III.
How can I know you're okay
If you are miles away
Feeling unwell, here I am
Missing you, I need your hand

IV.
All day long I'm finding you
How can I? You are not here
I am like a fool that seeks
Shouts your name, which you can't hear

V.
Missing you is like I'm tied
Screaming quietly inside
Smiling with my tears behind
Grief please let go of my mind

VI.
Restless, I cannot forget
The memories that you have left
It annoys me every eve
Insomnia, why won't you leave

VII.
I will hold what lifts me up
In the times I'm down enough
You're the sorrow far away
You're the reason why I stay

VIII.
Take the tears right out of me
Put a smile right on my face
Come back soon I'm standing here
Waiting for your warm embrace


~December 27, 2010~