Kellehendros
Eternal Wanderer
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“We’ll make our stand here.” She didn’t want to be here. She knew this dream, knew how it ended. But Epsyon had her now, and she was sinking into the dream all the same. Regina armed sweat from her forehead, looking left and right, and then over her shoulder. The mountain trail ascended towards the pass above them, sloping away on one side into a rocky ravine though they were still in the wooded foothills. This was a creased and folded land of ravines and precipices, and they had spent as much time going down as up towards the pass. “Are you sure, Owen? If we could make it into the pass...” The soldier shook his head. “I’m sorry, ma’am, but we won’t make the pass before they catch us.” She licked her lips nervously, glancing among the four soldiers making up the remains of her escort. They were haggard, worn from two weeks of long days and short nights over rough, unknown terrain filled with imperial troops searching for them. Every attempt to reach the border had been met with failure or disaster. Their equipment was battered, their stomachs were empty, and their morale was worn to rags thin as their clothing. “You’re certain?” Owen just shook his head. “Jax, Darner, get the axes and get chopping. We’re going to topple some trees, limit their angle of approach.” Jax, the youngest of the party. He had been so eager when they started out from the capital, ready to be a hero and prove himself. Regina whimpered in her sleep, curling into a ball. ”Jess, find a tree ya like and start scaling; you’ll be able to pick a few of them off if we’re lucky.” Regina watched the others go about their tasks, turning towards Owen. “What should I do, Commander?” He wasn’t, of course, wasn’t the commander, that is. Owen was just the most senior of the escort to survive the wreck of their vessel. Regina had put him in charge of the others because of that, because it seemed to be expected of her, because she had no idea what else to do. Stranded in unfriendly territory there were so few choices, and none of them were good. “Stay out of the way, your ladyship. Write your reports, if you like. There’s work to do.” Owen had not liked her. The feeling had been mutual, but she had never wished him ill… She did as she was bidden, recording in her journal the trials of the past few days. Given the straits they found themselves in, it seemed a largely pointless exercise. Who would read her words after all? She was about to die. They were all about to die. Regina glanced up from the pages, blinking, and then shaking her head and starting to write again. For a second she thought she had seen… a woman with red hair. Regina twitched and shuddered, the stranger’s appearance rattling the nightmare-reality. Her lips formed a name, but it was foreign to her. “Alice…” It meant nothing, and perhaps everything, but the dream stabilized... “Reg, they’re coming.” She startled out of her reverie, looking up from the pages and into Jax’s earnest face. He was young, too young! He didn’t deserve this. He shouldn’t have come with them! Empty protestations for events already done. Wishing it was otherwise would never make it so. Regina closed the journal and stood, swallowing against the rising lump of fear in her throat. “We’re ready?” “As we can be, your ladyship.” Owen stumped over to them. “Jess sighted ‘em coming through the trees. They’ll make the ridge in a few minutes.” Just then Jess cried out, bowstring snapping as she fired. Horsemen swarmed over the ridge, mounts thundering over the packed earth of the trail. Regina scurried behind the nearest tree. Owen and the others seemed as shocked as she was. Where had the cavalry come from? In seconds, everything had become chaos. Men and horses screamed as the two groups came together in a clash of metal and muscle. Regina saw one of the horsemen topple from his mount, a feathered shaft sprouting from his chest. Darner was bowled over by another rider, his cries lost as the warhorse stamped and bucked over him. Owen was screaming imprecations, sword flashing as he turned and slashed, sending a horse crowhopping to the side and bugling in pain, rider dumped from the saddle. It was too much. She wasn’t meant for this. She was a diplomat, a messenger! This was war, a battle. She had no place here! Everything blurred together. Arrows hissing through the air, blood splashing, men cursing and grunting. Jess fell from her arboreal perch, feathered with half a dozen shafts. Regina stumbled over Owen’s body, the man’s arm simply missing at the shoulder. Jax was pushing her up the path, his eyes wild, a notched and broken sword in his hand as he shouted at her. “Go, go! I’ll hold them back!” In a detached part of her mind, the rest was busy gibbering insanely, she wondered that it was Jax who was left. Little Jax, green and untested, bleeding from half a dozen wounds, his left arm hanging uselessly at his side. Something collided with them, scything her legs out from beneath her. Regina’s breath whooshed out of her as she was slammed against the ground, rocks digging into her back. A heavy, armored form landed atop her. Jax was roaring somewhere, a sound of berserk fury entirely out of proportion with his stature and quiet nature. Swords rang, but Regina had no attention for them; she was flailing at the armored man above her, trying to keep his hands from her neck. “Mercy,” she gasped, heaving against the soldier’s weight and leverage, “quarter, please!” The imperial soldier grinned down at her, blood splashed across his face as he forced her hands up over her head, pinning them with one hand while his other closed on her throat. “No quarter for bandits and sneak-thieves.” Regina thrashed, eyes going wide as the cold metal hand started to squeeze. She fought, twisting and jerking, trying to break the man’s leverage on her hands. For a moment she saw the red-haired woman again… Regina thrashed, moaning in her sleep, the sheets wound about her constrictingly. She flailed at her confinement, breath coming in ragged gasps. Why wouldn’t she help? Stars bloomed before her eyes, and Regina bucked, snapping her legs up and managing to rock the soldier enough to break his grip. Cool air flooded her throat like a blessing from the gods. The soldier snarled, reaching for her again, but suddenly Jax was there, slamming into the man and toppling him over. The two rolled over and over, heading for the edge of the trail, a precipitous drop into the steep ravine. Gasping and hacking, Regina staggered towards the fighters, the world reeling around her. She had to help Jax, she had to do something. Her hand flashed to the dagger at her belt, drawing the weapon as she advanced. Jax was pinned beneath the soldier now, good arm up defensively as the armored man rained blows down on him. Something inside of her snapped, and Regina was distantly aware that she was screaming, hurling herself upon the armored man’s back, dagger descending and striking at the joint where the man’s gorget and pauldron met. The imperial soldier howled as the weapon bit into him, lashing out at Regina and sending her sprawling. He wrenched a mace from the belt at his waist, spitting invective at her as he raised the weapon overhead. Regina scrabbled backwards, but there was nowhere to run. Behind her was nothing but the sudden steep fall into the rocky vale. She lifted a hand futilely, there was a blur of movement at the edge of her vision, the world exploded in bursts of color and light, and then there was nothing but blackness, pain, and a curious weightlessness. “No more, please…” Regina begged, shivering as though with an augue, the bedsheets soaked with sweat and twisted about her like chains. “Respite, please…” But Zephyrus was not here, and if Alice could grant asylum from the horror she seemed to have no interest in doing so. It was the rain that woke her. Cold droplets of water plashed across her face, dragging her back to consciousness. And with consciousness came pain. Regina whimpered, pain lashing across her senses as she struggled to open her eyes. A heavy weight was pressed across her legs and torso, and Regina pushed feebly at it, finally managing to roll the weight over and away. It was Jax. Regina’s heart stuttered in her chest. They were down at the bottom of the ravine. Had they fallen? Her head ached abominably. Everything seemed disjointed. Jax was a mess, torn and cut in a dozen places. He had to be dead, one of his legs was broken, his left arm was bent back at an unnatural angle. But he wasn’t. Jax’s eyes cracked open, blinking distantly at her. “Reg?” She had hated that he called her that, like he was her kid brother or something, but she had given up asking him to stop within a week of their departure from the capital. There had been something endearing about it. “You okay?” “J-Jax don’t… My head, ugh… We have to get out of here.” “You gotta go, Reg.” Regina shook her head, immediately regretting it. Spears of agony lanced through her skull, turning her vision into dancing swirls of colored stars. “Can’t…” “You have to, Reg. You’ve got a job to do. That’s why we came… make sure you could do it.” “I can’t, Jax. I can’t…” But she didn’t know what she couldn’t, what it was that she was trying to deny. “I’m not getting out of here, Reg, not with this leg and my arm.” He swallowed, his face a mask of blood. “I need you… I’m sorry Reg, but…” Regina stared at him, feeling like her brain was made of lead. She watched him struggle for each breath, pain throbbing through her temples, jamming the gears of her mind. It took her nearly a minute to realize what he was saying, what he was asking, and when she did she could only shake her head, wincing at each renewed bolt of agony. “It has to be, Reg.” She levered herself upright, her body screaming in protest, a chorus of bruised and battered muscles and bones. It was nothing compared to her head. Regina felt as though her head was made of glass, her brain rattling around in an oversized case. She just stared at Jax, panting and trying to slow the hammering of her heart, each beat sending dull throbs of agony coursing through her. “I did the best I could…” Jax trailed off tiredly, his face obscured beneath dried filth and blood. His eyes were young, so young, as they looked up at her. “Tell them, when you get back; tell them I did the best I could.” Regina leaned over him, sagging against the young man as she embraced him with tremulous strength. “No, no more, please. Please, stop…” Regina whimpered. Her prayer unheard, the dream uninterrupted. “You were a hero, Jax. They’ll speak your name forever.” She closed her eyes and kissed him. She could think of nothing else to do, no benediction to send him on, and so she kissed him, tasting the blood on his lips and the salt of her tears. She kissed him, and she killed him, driving the blade of the knife at his waist up between the ribs and into his heart, into her heart. “WAKE!” Regina toppled out of the bed, curling into a ball, weeping and clutching her head. The pain, oh gods the pain! Every nerve ending was aflame, and there was a monster inside her head, roaring and clawing to get out. She was weeping uncontrollably, tears of pain and sorrow tracking down her cheeks as her body was racked by sobs. She hadn’t wanted to kill him. What choice did she have? She couldn’t have carried Jax out of that ravine any more than she could have fought off their attackers, and with his broken leg and bad arm there was no way he could have gotten out himself. Staying would have meant death for both of them. Leaving him there was as good as killing him, not to mention he might have been captured, interrogated, tortured… Regina quieted slowly, piecing herself back together one stuttering breath at a time, blocking out the horrible nightmare of the past with the present moment. She was in a room, upstairs, probably. Zephyrus must have had someone bring her up here last night after she had passed out. Regina tried to think, to put together a line of coherent logic, but her brain felt like a machine with a stripped gear, teeth clashing and missing each other, turning over haltingly. Zephyrus. She was the key. Regina winced, pushing herself upright, whimpering as the movement and effort fair split her skull. But she had been living with pain for a long time now. Regina pulled herself up, using the bedframe to steady herself as she fought off a wave of nausea. She tottered over to the washbasin, sinking shaking hands into the cool water and rubbing at her face. Regina straightened, moving slowly and carefully, conscientiously remaking the bed. She would have to thank Zephyrus for the kindness when she saw the woman again. After that… After that Regina would have some questions to ask. She regretted her weakness of the previous night. Whatever might have been explained, she would have to ask to hear it again. But there was nothing for it, and nothing to do but endure, so Regina cleaned herself up as best she could, ensuring Jax’s knife was safely tucked into its place at her belt before she left. Shuffling out into the hall she closed the door behind her, frowning slightly as she saw her name etched upon the nameplate on the door. Epsyon, what further explanation was there? None she could think of, though the pounding in her head admitted little leeway for thought just now. She moved slowly down the corridor and down the stairs, following the scent of food back to the common room. Regina hesitated, her eyes going from the woman to the rather imposing man. “Good morning,” she said, with less trepidation than she felt as she moved over to the table, “might I join you?”
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